hello! i am sitting in my friends room at home - a tad bored cause football is on - i don't understand it. so i thought i woudl catch everyone up on my life! so far, dull. exciting huh? i don't really have anythign to do, i honestly think i woudl be happy to just go to bed. sad huh? i dont' know whats up with me. my roomate, steph, has been really depressed lately - maybe it's rubbing off. thing is i have absolutly no reason to be sad. there is nothign wrong with my life. and thats good. for once i am actually totally normal. those of you who are very good friends of mine will be proud of this - jan 6 cam eand went and my arm is clean! first year. i'm so proud. i think i may have actually accepted it. i guess thats how life goes. i don't really know whats up with me. mayeb i need a swift kick in th ebutt? i'm so excited about my classes! but like i have no idea what i want to do with my life yet. i don't know. like all of a sudden media has been liek this huge interest of mine, but the thing is, because i go to GW i can't major in whatever i want to, naw that woudl be easy. i have to apply to major in the things i am interested in. of cours eonly the majors i like are the ones you have apply for. damn. my fat luck. i don't know what i want to do. and also i am taking a really great english class, the american drama, whcih hasd totally brought plays back int o my life - i missed them a lot. i dind't realize so much. and like i dunno. but at leats things with erik are good~ for those of you who care. i miss cali a lot. people here are so mean. they keep making fun of me and cali argh. i need excitement in my life. ok well i'm off! love ya! sorry my poll and message board odn't work - someday when i have time again! =) bye!