i'm a horrible person. i know. i lied. i said i would blog a lot more and obviously i haven't. i'm very sorry. however, i have been busy and maybe i have come to that point in life where i realize greades really are more important than wasting time on the internet? but then again, maybe not =) so it's sat. at almost 6:30 and it looks as thought i will be out on another date with my computer again tonite. joy. =) more notes to type up! wanna a feel for my life? here you go: sat & sun final prep for finals (doen's tsound like much, trust me - it is) mon: dad arrives to pack up all of my crap, french final, film appt to get my outline approved. tues: final photo critque and film final. wed: poli sci final, 2 papers due for english by noon and leaving dc around 1 to go out to the farm with all my stuff. at which point i am allowed to breathe. i hate finals. but it'll be worth it to be home again. someone please tell me it's sunny and gorgeous in california. it is worse than miserable here. but it doesn't even matter so much how the weather is at home cause i will be with people that love me and who i love. AND kinner is coming in for the weekend of the 11th and so we get to hang out! and for anyoen from cv reading this - i will NOT, thats correct, NOT have a car this summer. unless you want to try getting a car away from a 16 year old boy. good news: erik might have a car. however, if you want to see me this summer you must have transportation of some kind ( i am open to golf carts). i'm reaching that point of explosion where i just need ot home and i'm beginning to stop caring about finals (is that why i'm writing a blog . . . hmmmm). and i think we should be graded on our final prep - not on the actual grades on our finals. but thats just me. i had 6 finals this year, one is done (lifeguard - i got certified - yay!) and only 5 more to go. blast it all to hell. but now i am sitting alonein my room because i can't go out and do anything because of severe lack of cash. perhaps i will try to contrsuct a dinner out of what we have in the cabinets . . . hmm i have frozen roles and safeway insta-rice. thank god for college. ok, so things could be better. and my brain is in that pre-final mush - where if you ask me anything about something besides 20th century political thought, french, film or american drama my answer will close to: ummmm uhhhh i dunno. classic. but the food thing will be ok, i just need to get through todya and tommorrow - 3 more meals . . .i can do this! so now it is raning and thundering. i am going to take that as a sign that God is angry at me for doing so much work. i believe He is telling me to relax for tonite - don't you agree? ok, now that i have officially confiremed my worst fears that i am indeed insane i will leave you all now. my fingers hurt from typing and i haven't been able to feel my ass for hours at this point - i believe it has been molded into my chair. i have to go dunk my head in a bucket of ice.